As of this morning, I am considering rejoining the land of sugar. I've come to the realization that the world I thought I wanted, is not based in reality. I don't enjoy playing games, and although as I've said I love the mental foreplay, to me a relationship is not a power struggle. I like things to be clear from the beginning, which is the nice thing about sugar relationships. The negative is that I'm not sure the attraction will be there especially if I know that it is purely a business relationship. For me, sex does not equate romance. Sex is sex and there aren't any emotions involved. If I actually like the person the sex may be different than if I'm having NSA sex, but I don't need that connection to engage in coitus. I like sex, but shhh don't tell anyone, I'm a girl and only supposed to have sex with my future husband when he wants it. I love pleasing others, and sex is the epitome of pleasing someone. I love being worshipped, and I love how vulnerable and open the other person must be with me.
I still have a couple months of school left, so perhaps it isn't the best time to reenter the sugar bowl, especially with finals coming up and then leaving for home once they're done, but I'm disappointed in the turnout of traditional relationships lately. So maybe a break from them would be a good thing.
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| If only I looked like this during finals |
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