Do you

How can you expect someone to get you off if you can't even get yourself off?  Well I actually know someone who could... and did.  For the rest of us, get to know yourself.
I've often said that you shouldn't change yourself for someone, minor adjustments yes, but you should do things for yourself and not for someone else.
Case in point, I got a new wardrobe, abstained from getting off, removed all unwanted hair, worked out, worked my skin till it was soft with sweet smelling oils, and went out of my way to look nice and go to this guy.  Well guess what, it didn't work out.
The good thing is that it got me realizing how much I've let myself go (not that my stomach protrudes or anything, I've just rested on my laurels) and just haven't cared.  Before I met up with the guy, I went bar hopping and noticed an increase in the amount of attention and pick up lines I garnered.  Needless to say... she's back.  So girls, lock up your boyfriends, or you may feel a little upset when you see him hitting on me.

2/15/12

I feel horrible for leading people on from SA, but some serious events happened in my life within the last month since returning to school and has made me seriously reconsidered being a Sugar Baby.  At the very least, I need to postpone my involvement.  I feel like a poof baby to just disappear like this, but this is not the right time for me to be a part of the sugar bowl.  Perhaps in the future, but for now my plate is too full with the fall out from recent events.

Update 1/16/12

I DO.  Just kidding.  But in all honesty, who proposes after reading a profile and not even knowing the girl's name?  Did I mention we'd never talked before... and that he'd never seen a picture of me?  Stop sending me all of your accomplishments and telling how much you like what I've written, I'm not interested, I'm creeped the fuck out!!!

Don't want him to try and put a ring on it

Word of the day: Fatuous

Meaning: Silly, foolish, inane, or asinine especially in an unconscious manner
An example would be when a potential SD sent me an email saying, "hahaha" "no one is that hot."  Before I could respond, he blocked me.  What purpose does that serve?  Also, I don't mention being hot or even have a face shot on my profile, nice going genius.  I'm guessing he couldn't help it, but I wanted to teach him how to be a civil human being.  But since he blocked me, he didn't really give me a chance.  So, doing my due diligence to the entire community, I blocked him and reported his sorry ass.

Oh look, a jackass

Update: 1/7/12

      I've had a lot of luck in the sugar bowl so far... considering how short a time I have been a member.  I've got to say, it is a HUGE ego boost getting so many profile views and messages in such a short span of time.  Not to mention that I've got to blush when someone tells me they joined the site after reading my profile, just to talk to me.   A little freaky too,  I mean what if I'm great online but am actually misrepresenting myself and they're disappointed when they meet me in person?  What if my profile is great but when we start an actual conversation back and forth they're not into me anymore?  All these what ifs have me questioning why I'm doing this.  What if I'm not cut out to be a sugar baby...

     That being said, who offers a couple thousand and a weekend trip across the country just so they can meet you!?!  Sound suspicious and way too good to be true?  Agreed.  Which is what I told him... and then he blocked me.  I never said I would be opposed to it after a bit of back and forth, so this affirms my evaluation that it was probably a bogus offer or he was looking for an escort.

My body is worth more than this

     Through weeding out all the offers, I've been able to find a couple men who I am talking to and who seem to be rather promising.  I know this process takes time but hopefully everything works out.

Officially in the Market

      I just made my first foray into the sugar bowl.  I'm proud of myself for working up the courage to put myself out there and really just not be so passive.  This is something I told myself I would do for a while now so to actually have done it I feel a great sense of accomplishment... I also feel a great sense of anxiety.

Officially a Sugar Baby

     I've put a profile up, given my statistics, a brief peek into who I am and what I'm looking for.  Perhaps I should be more specific as to what I'm willing and unwilling to do... my first few messages have been from older married men who are looking for physically intimate relationships.  What do ya expect, men think with their dicks and the only thought that can hold their attention for more than five seconds is S E X.
     I'm kidding... But not really.  This is what I expected for the most part, I mean the site seems to be geared towards money for sex + chemistry.  This is going to make it more difficult for me to find what I'm looking for, as well as getting the information about relationships and men and women's relationships.  I am also interested in the dynamic of sex and how what is acceptable has evolved, but unfortunately unless I am willing to share a bed with someone, the data that I gather might be severely limited.  Oh well, this is more just to satisfy my own curiosity, I'll save the real investigating and documenting for my dissertation.
     Now all that's left is to choose and upload a photo...

A Slight Mistake

     So last night I was having a great time at a friend's party... and then I found out the guy who took my virginity was there.  I freaked out and started guzzling any handle I could get my hands on.  Let's just say that things got a little fuzzy and next thing I knew, he was on top of me.  Afterwards I was freaking out even more than when I found out he was at the same party as me.  I walked to a friend's apartment, and the whole way there shook uncontrollably as I nearly broke down into a complete heap of tears.  I can't tell anyone because of how embarrassed I am, and the fact that I don't want people to know this about me.  I just want this ordeal to be over and to move on and never have to see him again.  Somehow he keeps showing up in my life and  bringing all of that fear, regret, and shame surging to the surface.  I thought I had a good handle on my life and was pretty much over that whole situation, but after this, I realize I really need to start acting like a rational adult and stop making all of these mistakes.  That's pretty obvious and you'd think it would be fairly simple, but nope I keep fucking up.
By not talking about this whole incident I hope I can repress it and be the person I was before I got so derailed by certain incidents in my life.  I'll just try to keep on learning from these mistakes in order to prevent them from happening ever again, and also not let it affect me.
I am so ashamed and have no one to blame but myself.